the importance of being honest

i was quite scared, you see
afraid of what you'd think of me
so i laughed a lot, and bounced around
talked too much, acted like a clown
tried to make myself stand out,
alternate, popular, geeky, owt

actually, i'm just like you
it's just, the last few years have been too easy for me,
with my self imposed,
lack of interaction with those
people who make me feel scared
i've been afraid, i haven't dared

self depreciation, abuse and then self harm,
you should see the awful state
of my legs and arms.

i'm on my way back up though,
feeling better every day,
apart from the odd relapse,
i know i'm on my way

so thank you everybody,
for helping me feel great,
and let's hope it continues,
my bouncy happy state!